The Chimney

Raging in fury
Full thick black clouds filling the rooms Of every corner within view
Alarms beginning to portray and sound a sound of alarm and worries of all within ears reach.
Frantic and searching throughout and about no answers to arise
This all came as a big surprise and a new unsolved mystery at hand.
Black suit staining the roof and the frame as pieces of the chimney have melted away.
Asking help from the insurance who insures all is well
Yet left with no heat and winter and a family left within the cold for the night
Nowhere to turn as not an answer in sight
No sight of flame can be seen with the eye
Just left over suit and black mess of array.
Where this was once a chimney now left melt away by this hidden fire we did not see.
Questions still unanswered but happy and aware that all are still alright thanks to the friend of the dog who warned them before anything could get out of hand and alerted master before time was too late.
Thanks to the dog we call man’s best friend who plays to be friend even in signs of the end.
In the chimney is where it seemed to play out.
Leaving the roof and sides nothing but misty black on and throughout.

****Dedicated to anyone who has experienced the haste of taking part on the loss of property, homing, or everything in or to a house fire. I can say that I now know what pressure and tragedy that is like. May God bless you all. ****

Baby Crazy

Baby your crazy
You gotta be nuts
Baby we’re crazy
Together this is how we live life
with each other going crazy in and out of love with each other wanting life with each other nothing but forever

Baby we’re crazy
We gotta be nuts
Together living our lives
Up and down on many different roller coaster rides under the sun and moon finding ourselves in the gleam of it’s light

I like you no matter how ugly and insensible you or things in life may seem or be
You make me crazy
You make me feel just like me
Just as we are as
You make me making me crazy

Invisible to others is what I become
With no one around but you and me
Baby, baby you make me crazy

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The World Of Grey And Betray

We can at times take life for granted, leaving our most treasured and sacred possessions behind to gain our pleasure, riches or entertainments to fill the word made of just the way we like it, creating life. Filling our times with the things that we enjoy or would like more freedoms or entertainments of. Forgetting who we are and leaving behind the most precious to us. Filling it with what seems so good at the time, until we learn afterwards how wrong we were at the time of doing that which was wrong. You need to rebuild and mend time can not be changed. It is what it is, it is as we created who we are, have become or have learned along the way. This is your very own life. This is you. It can be changed in time but only by you alone, as only I can change my life. You are the pilot on this ride. Don’t run to hide or crawl under your bed it is not that easy. Your troubles will remain. They will not go away until you have stared them down and had a face on with them. Creating the balance between to form who you were meant to truly be. You don’t gotta listen to me, but If you do just remember I am just another face trying to help you to find your face amongst the world of grey and betray. To find just who you are and the face you see looking at you in a mirror each day.

I Remember The Day

I am remembering when you were inside me. Your tiny fingers and tiny feet. The smile you have when you were getting the ultrasound. I Remember the movement you had once done in my belly. I remember you as if I knew you, even though you never came to earth. You would be twelve now becoming a big girl. I miss you even now after you’ve been gone for years now. It would have been nice to meet you but God had other plans for you and I. Yet you came to visit me on the Christmas after I had lost you. Each year I still celebrate the special day you were to be born. I’ll always love you like my daughters I do have for you will always be mine. Katrina I love you.

A Soldier Who Gave His Life For The Love Of His Country

There was a soldier who gave his life for the love of his country.

On duty all day learning to be the best that he could be.

Fighting in wars that he got called and deployed.

His heart focused on saving his county and making it safer for all.

Putting out his own life, earing purple hearts by purple hearts.

Putting his own family aside just to follow each duty that he was called for.

Staying away as long as it may take.

seeing both violence, and poverty and sometimes love and acceptance.

Yet throughout all living many different journeys.

Not always ones he may have enjoyed, yet managing to cope.

with what he’s got which is not much.

sometimes no food for him to eat. sleeping on a bunker hard as could be.

Getting mail sometimes only once a month.

Not seeing regular life as he is deployed to battle the war.

Always watching his back as surprises could arise.

Trying to accomplish getting to know and enjoy everyone at his side,

even if they are the most complicated ones in his barracks.

A soldier he once was until he lost his life.

Living each war and deployed to many different missions.

Living up to all that was in store for him even if not planned.

Yet he became sick with lung cancer and as he became sicker and sicker.

He claimed living the life of a soldier and earning your purple hearts, being held hostige and chanceing his own

life was not was nowhere near as complicate, and painful as coming down with the cancer.

Cancer was the hardest that he had ever faced, so much more than being that soldier that he once was.

Leaving his home and everything that he knew.

Leaving loved ones behind for the love and saftey of his very own country.

Sommetimes we don’t know just what we will face until we come to it first hand.

This was a true life of a very special man of duty in the marines.

God rest his soul, and keep him in peace as he has seen so many burdening things.

It is time for his life to change as he is respected for who he was and fought the biggest wars of many years.

The Cival war and I believe the Korean war.

Fighting his own fight he lay to rest now still giving his full best.

There was a soldier who gave his life for his country and became the respectable man even to the end.

Dedicated to my grandfather who passed just this way in 2003.

An Easy Life Is Hard To Come By

An easy life is hard to come by.

You do your best yet it never lasts.

dropping your daily life trying to create an easier way.

however this usually leads to making it harder trying to fit in.

Everyday is left with no time, feeling as if nothing was done that you had planned.

you run and run, continueing the run leading to running out of time within the day.

An easy life is so hard to come by.

you never plan to cram all your appoinments within the day.

But somehow some way this always falls into play.

So much to do even if not a fun event.

weather it be a dr. appointment, a school event, or a sports or club event.

it somehow always eats your time.

An easy life is hard to come by.

An easy life is hard to come by.

Marry Me

Marry me.
Love me.
Cherish me.
Remember all the happy times.
All the memories.
You bring me to life.
You make me strong.
You are my shining star the shines so bright.

Marry me.
Keep each memory.
Love me.
Hold me.
You make me smile.
You make me laugh.
You are my everything.

You make my heart beat so rapid.
You make me shake at your sight.
You make me alive.

Hurry up don’t let time run out.
Marry me.
Walk with me underneath a stary sky.
Marry me don’t make me wait.
Time is of the essence do the right thing.
Marry me.

2011 in review

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It Was Two Years Ago Today

I am sitting in solitude a lot lately with so many questions and thoughts to ponder. With a daughter that has a blood disease and needs a regular medical schedule. Together with thoughts of recollection of the past years because of the recent transition of the new year to the realization that today a year ago was the day that my mother passed. I miss you mom. Just some simple thinking coming amongst my brain. As I don’t have the answers or knowledge of her days in life i gave her and than i guess that I am understanding why you have been nagging and pulling at my heart and mind a lot more recently lately, as it was two years ago today that you died. I am hoping and believing that this is you trying to acknowledge me and let me know that you are here and still trying to let me know that you are still in a sense by my side. Maybe not in so many words and actions as I am used to but by my heart hoping that it is so. Mom, I love you.

The Traveler I Now Am

Traveling now where we once traveled together I now become my own traveler.
Looking about with each step that I take I see just all that I have seen once before, but this time is different.
Each empty branch and each limb on a tree I take notice of as it does not pass by me. The two sets of footprints that once followed me are a single traveler among that fresh bank of snow. Seeing in a different light which I had once known even in the night passes me by now with a bit of discomfort, unfamiliar and fright.
Seeing my life with two different eyes and you no longer a traveler at my side makes me restless even at the best of times.
At times making me fall in tears and cry
Or drop toy knees wanting to hide. My life is just not the same anymore with you gone and no longer walking in thru the door. Just to hear you speak once more or feel you cry on my shoulder when we’d have a good talk to comfort each other and make each other get the last word or last laugh.
Even when I was at my lowest low you helped me to keep my head high and have something to live for in life now.
But when I was all settled and thought it all was alright that was when I was alone and came back to realization of life and what it is now reminding me once again of life without you here by my side yet again. Making me the traveler who I now am.