Teach Me Your Laws

The real truth’s of (Me)
This is a great place to give more details about me, as the Webmaster. I could give personal information about my family, my job, my education, and my hobbies and interests; however instead I’d just like to start by telling you the truth’s about me. My thruth’s basicly formed my testimony of truth about the man called Jesus. He saved my life and turned me around. For that I thank him. I will start by writing you this letter.
To those who care;
I know that you all have your own opinions and thoughts about me, but I need to tell you now. No-one knows me better than myself. I will tell you my truth’s and put it to you this way. You all have heard and know through my life I have been hurt and abused. At times I have been the one to hurt. I have done many things and have made many wrong decissions in my past. This I admit to. Yet I would ask that you not put me down, or critisize, or condem me for my mistakes. That’s exactly what they were. They have made me who I have become they have taught me the things which I have needed to learn and experience to see my truths. No-one can help someone learn something. They can only show them and help them know the way to teach it to them. However, a pupil needs to learn and experience something on his/her own to know and understand it. In time they will begin to see for themselves, and they will than begin to grow and mature. Now having said all that; I can say the horror I don’t like to bring out but know that if and when I do it helps me to heal, grow and mature in myself as well. As it may speak to others who have been through similar.

I was a young girl like you. As a child at the age of 3 I was molested. Later in life as I began to grow and mature, I became very shy and fearing in some ways, yet in other ways not. I then became a high school teen and made many wrong decissions and was rebellious a bit more than other teens didn’t care what my parents said out of fear of being raped, beaten, or killed by a guy if I decided to say “no” this was my fear because my first time that I had ever had sex was a date rape which I had been through that took my verginity. I could never talk in depth fully to anyone about this for many years out of fear of the result. 1994 I went to National Youth Confrence (NYC “94) where my life changed and I changed and most of all I had gotten saved. I had listened to a women speaker who spoke on sex,drugs and date rape she was the only one I felt called to listen to even as Oliver someone who I had met at the conference still continued to rebel to the conference and kept trying to do our usual of having a conversation during the mandatory speaker as to us it was purely boring, well until this one speaker. She had all the right words and topics to grab my attention and make me feel like she was talking just to me. I kept telling Oliver to hush and listen. He questioned me and said “you’re kidding me right, since when are you interested in this bullshit stuff” I turned to him and said I dunno, since it is actually good choice of topic as this women spoke she invited anyone to join in a national youth conference anointing service as she brought it to close. I had never had one or even knew what it was they were talking about but something was calling me to take pry in it. So when the service began I stood up and walked all the way down from the very top of this college stadium down to the bottom and stood scared in front of the person doing the anointing feeling like I’d be criticized for what I was about to do but I knew that I was being called to my duty to do this. The anointer said some words to me though all I can remember is god be with you and bless you as they anointed my forehead with a cross. Uncontrolled weak within me I just collapsed and could not move crying uncontrollably with peace as I felt the Holy Spirit baptize me as well running throughout my body straight from my forehead to my toes. I was crying and at peace at the same time but unable to move they took me to a prayer tent where a pastor spoke with me telling me “God loves you no matter your sins” then he asked me to tell him what was bothering me and what was I feeling that God was speaking to him that I’ve sinned and been hurt. This is where I opened up for the first time ever and he told me when you return home you need to tell your family and your pastor what you have just told me “your faith testimony” so when I returned to my church after the confrence, I had spoke with the pastor about becoming a baptized member of the church. So I went through the membership class and got baptized into the church. To go through the membership class you had to turn something over to God for him to take from you for you to grow. You had to turn over three things to give unto him. So for my vows which I had given to my God. I had said Lord, for my vows to you I would like to turn over my smoking and drinking, my cursing, and my act of sex. If I had thought about it at the time I would have turned my abuse over as well, to free myself of the guilt and pain. Although I didn’t. I don’t like my past, nor do I like who I was but I have survived and seen my faults, my mistakes, in myself which allow me to fall and sin. I have begun to learn many of my weaknesses but only through my own experiences, and my own stories.
The first time I had ever experienced sex was NOT in sex ed; cause I never had that course, it was in experience. I have grown, survived, matured, and made it through a tough life. From a series of rapes, 1 beating a couple of stalkings as well as a random sexual phone abuser. I had remained a victim for many of my teen years through most of my life. Not seeing anything of my teen years. Only seeing what would not blind me. A lot of my teen life I was numb unable to understand myself, my choices and my actions. Through growing up I have been able to finally begin to open up about everything. Slowly begining in 1994 at NYC when I first talked with someone after holding it within myself for over 5 yrs. starting at home confiding in my brothers I spoke first to them asking them still not to say anything that it had to be said by me when I was ready. Then later with my parent’s. All this then helping me to begin to heal and see and learn more about myself, my life, my future and my present. Also begining to help me to feel my emotion again, and not be so numb to everything. I have learned and been wittness to myself and of myself. I have seen my falls and my highs and while experiencing life have also experienced myself. I know my past looks bad but in reality it’s just a tiny part to my big finale of who I will be when I get to my finish line of life. To the women I have finally become. To the women God had planned me to be. Yet knowing I may take a while to get there through my choices in life, and the dessicions I chose to make, and will make. I suffered in many ways… stumbling many obsticles. All in all my biggest lesson I have learned over the years of horror time and time again which brought me to salvation; is to always open up to those around you and always be honest about all in your life, no matter how hard it may be do not hide anything because in the end it will only bite you back. So now I try my best nolonger to live in the flesh by having sex. Before I even get into a relationship I open up and am honest with a guy before the guy even has the chance to fall in love with me. This was how I met OneSoulJourney at the time Fordmustang in the test of survival in Yahoo messenger chat room prayer pal friends in a test of faith now 33 years later after I told him over the phone I was not going allow myself to trust him or get close to him I try to live for Christ more because he pulled me up from the wreckage of all my hard times and complications, and was faithful by showing me the way and reguiding me. I guess we did for each other because I saved him that night from suicide. Yet, all Christians get misguided and back slide, and again I admitt that at times I have. These were the things I needed to learn on my own. Although in your eyes you will only see peices of my life and percieve it as you will. Only I know the truth about who I am and what my life was like. When and if I feel compfortable sharing it and talking about it with others then I will. Although I have slipped at times. I am not afraid or ashamed to be honest. Jesus was. So now I am being honest with everyone so that they don’t see me hiding in my old mask anymore. Everything happens for a reason. If I can be a survivor so can others who experience similar things. At the right time in his own time my faults will be judged by one judge, and one judge alone. My faults will become miracles and blessings. So to conclude I’d ask you not to judge me and to say Thank you for being my friends during my life here on this place called earth. Lots of love. Thanks!

The History or Story Behind My Site
I have created this site out of love for Jesus Christ who gave his life for me to live. Also out of lots of kindness and caring for other teens who may not know the man they call Jesus. I have seen Gods face and I know his story is alive. So I will do all in my power to show christ’s love through me. So that it may shine on others around and near me.


Trials and Temptations
James 1 Vrs.2-7, & 12-18 NIV Bible 2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does. 12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. 13When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. 15Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death. 16Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers. 17Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 18He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created

Psalm 119:64 (King James Version)

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The earth, O Lord, is full of thy mercy: teach me thy statutes.

All the earth is God’s devine creation and all in it is given full of God’s mercy teach me the rules of that of God’s fully his 💕love

Kneeling At Your Feet

We fall down
You lift us high
Rising us like eagles
We reach out for your hand
We cry out in praise
Crying holy holy holy
Kneeling at your feet
Lifting our prayer
at the bottom of the cross
Knowing you paid ransom to give us life
You will raise us from the dead
What was once dead will live again
I stay kneeling at your feet in praise to you
For you are he the lord
You are almighty
You are God

Be Careful What You Speak

Be careful little tongue what you speak
Daggers go far and sharp from your mouth what you speak
Choices made
Prices will be paid
Give god all the glory
Sweet relief
In ways we never could be without you
Only you
I long for glorification
Emanuel
I speak your name
Knowing my heart doesn’t deserve your glory
Yet you remain true in love
Removing my chains
Restoring my peace
Living in reverence of me
My Saviour
My king
My everything

When I Rise

In the morning when I rise

Sun shining over head in sunset

When I am alone

I remember walking with you

When you’ve walked with me too

Birds flying over head

Making me keep my head up

For you’ve always promised that I am never alone

When I sit in silence

I hear my heartbeat

Remembering it was you who made me

Feeling breeze on me like your very breath

You give me perfect peace when I am in pain and feeling low

You calm all my storms around me

Taking all my burdens from within

When I come to die

You will still be close by

Still reminding me I will never be alone

When I come to die

Your love keeps me alive

Within eternity

My heart still continues beating

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