I Know You Are Out There,

My love I know you are out there wondering this lonely dark and evil world
I feel you especially in those times I feel that I need you most
However that doesn’t make my travel any easier as I know it also won’t but to feel you beside me in each and every step tends to in some way way mend the pain
I know life seems ever so short and the distants ever so far and rough terrain but our time will never travel out and walk away from our time
Time will soon come to pass as we travel on our way when it does there we will finally see each others face and our journey will only then begin
I will not give up hope for I believe our day will come as our life together will come in as one and then the two of will together roam. We will be together just when we may feel yet our furthest yet apart
There then we will feel the strongest beat of each others heart as our journey will continue ahead as one
I believe in love and love has a spot for me this I can already see

Speaking With Your Heart

You listen with your ears
See with your eyes
Feel with your hands
But have you ever spoken without using your mouth
Think about all the ways of communication
It is good to speak with your mouth and use words
But to speak without mouth can sometimes speak even louder by speaking with your heart
Your soul reflects who you really are inside and out
By speaking with your heart you surrender your feelings of your soul speaking with your heart
Speaking with your heart is the loudest speech there is
You can read all there is around by speaking from the silence of your heart. All action is read by body in speaking with your heart and it goes deeper within when you speak with your heart.

Fourth of July

It’s a day of becoming free
The day of accepting the decorations of imdependance ion the life of 1776 To hold a memorial of sorts in their name. Yet some peoples lives just put themselves within their own shame and they tend to forget what this special day is truly about. Not living life a document to claim that they are free. Yet those some still living their own lives heads down not having that freedom of speech and life to themselves but rather still living under the claim of anothers fame and rule. If just what they had wanted them to truly be. They live out life still not being free. Sometimes that feels just like me. Not being heard, not able to have a say in a word.
Not able to be free spirit filled with your very own body
This life is not for me but I am one that this life enthraws and comes knocking on my door
Making my life not what it should be here. What is independence when its not really seen?
What is independence when it is ripped out from under thee? What is independence that isn’t something practiced in this life today.
Independence means to live and remain free
Though living free is not here what I see
It is not what I see surrounding me.
Independence means deciding your decisions throughout ones life
Independence needs to have leadership over thee. T

hrough day and night

and to be free.

Nowhere To Live

I have always been told that I live in a world of pure peace because I am always so calm and bliss
Right now I feel that I am living my life in pure fear and evil
I am afraid to even open my Windows and let the sunlight shine in
I am afraid to take that quick peek outside
I am afraid to look someone in the eye
My life has taken a large crumble and I don’t want to see where the crumbs will land
I want to hold my eyes forever shut and stay deep inside myself and cry
I can not take the abuse anymore
Living in silence with no one around
Living on the streets with not one safe place
Fearing that my kids are going to be taken from me when I am doing all that I can to try to keep us safe
Unsure of my ways hard for me to trust
Leaning on Gods arms to carry me on
Leaning on the one true man I have in my life to hold me strong giving me hope that I have to believe in.
Everything I have ever believed in before now being washed right down the drains
My heart sinking into my chest
My hands trembling at the pursuit of this future ending
My life being torn from beneath my feet
My feet holding weak beneath my weight
The pain burning and everlasting strong fire within my chest burning its own hole in my gut eating it away
Living under the eye of the dark eye of the villon I see
As I become its victim tonight
What’s to live for in life if all that you ever work so hard for gets taken from your side and you are repeatedly told lies
You yourself becoming the criminal in disguise
What do we do to save ourselves to rebuild our hopes
Our dreams that we have held on to for so long
No one can spell out or lives for us but what can we do to spell it out ourselves when you have become lost and overwhelmed on this path of disparities
I know running and hiding is not the answer but I know nothing more to do
Just spending a night in a hotel is luxury to me
Spending everyday having my very own kids asking me
“mommy, are we gonna live in a hotel tonight”
When everyday living in fear not knowing where we will end up tomorrow here or there
Not one place safe for us
Even sometimes living on the streets
This life is not for me
I just want to learn how to break free
With a handicap I did not request
and a job I can not get
No matter how many times and how hard I may try
All I want to do is cry
So burned out and torn down my biggest foundation holding me tight the love for my kids who mean the world to me
Without them I would be nothing more
Are you listening outside my door
Do you hear my cry
Listen! Are you there?
Please help…please pray!
I have runway within the depths of myself
With nowhere to live but within myself
It is like an ongoing dream that I have not woken up from
Here I am with nowhere to live

Recluse Spider Bites Again

I walk in the halls of a old hospital with many friends passing me by I am a doctor
Then the hospital turns into a jungle and I am a doctor to many sorts of jungle people main sorce of patients taking care of and trying to save the people from the bite of the Recluse Spider
I do what I can but loose many patients and finally save one but I get bit myself and before I die I wake up… crazy….

The Young Man, Angel And Wolf

As the wolf runs as fast as he can througout the forrest

 He finds a young man lying unconcious on the ground

The protector that the wolf is he lays down

under the shade of the tree to keep safe watch over the young man

within the shadows he stay till the sun arose the next day

then apeared in the mist of the early day an angel

within the glistening light of the sun

Her hair was so soft like that of soft baby rabbits

her eyes so wide, bright and beautiful

her wings as graceful as those of the flight of an eagle

together they awaited the young man to awake

when he finally wakes and rises to his feet

as the wolf takes his side to protect him

seeing that he is safe not to colapse and fall

as the angel takes his stare

as she gently explains that she was sent to be with him

to protect him saving his life

as he had taken a great fall down the steep revene

the angel told the wolf to always remain at his side

for if he should look death in the face again he will not be saved next time

so taking the young man under his sight

 they traveled together in search of the freedom of life

for the claiming of his plot of the land

with the race against time

this man ran his route in search of his land

cross river bed and wheat feilds he runs till he

finally spots his claim

with every single fight he won to give this land his name

stood the wolf by his side protecting him with fight and dominancy

he stuck his flag within his land

together the stood tall as they began to build a home on where they stood

this was how the young man became a hero then

with his new home

he sat in watch and took soldiers in as wounded they came

for this was his life

He did not want to see the fall of yet another man fall who fell wounded at his land

bringing them in one by one his wolf and he began their new journey

saving the soldiers outside his front door who they themselves were wounded in the war

helping them out he waited till they were well

then together he and wolf took them to find their own land

 forgetting the horrible trials of the war

this was the story of the young man, angel and wolf