A Twinkle In Your Eye

I see you just the way you always were

yet realize you may never return to what you once were

yet in the masked man I see still see you beneath the frozen memories

I still see the sparkle and twinkle in your eyes gleaming a dreamy flicker of hope and light

I know right now things don’t seem right and I now you don’t seem the same and you feel it too

However I still see the twinkles I saw once before

I know right now things will be alright

Your tough and a healthy fighter

you can see thru where others can not even imagine

I know that twinkle will hold you down and help you be strong

If I am found wrong then I’ll say it all the way home there once was a day I was wrong

I have faith

I know things are different right now

however I am hanging on strong with hope for a brand new tomorrow

Glad it be just  memory

it could have been your life taken away

You will grow strong from this and wander far

you’ve been given a second chance to open life a new door

I still see a gleam and twinkle in our eye that gives enough hope and faith to me to believe

Faded Darkness

Faded by darkness night after day

going to darkness fading away

blinded by sight  mar and mar

today is trembling the night away

faded by darkness night after day

Going to darkness fading away

lost in the silence that stumbles my pathway

shadows all  amongst saying whispers with the wind

blowing silence by silence

bringing darkness my way

Love Is Gone

Love is gone

Dreams vanished never real

Hearts ripped apart at the seams

My soul empty more pain once again

Fifteen years amongst the drains

A Love lost and blown away with the wind of unknown fates

Only God can heal this wound that has been made

Shattered spirits, shattered hearts, dreams fallen and drifted apart

the simple life leaving left behind falling from love that once was ours

Fallen in time by what once was mine

Don’t know if it will ever be the same again

a simple love so safe and true

a trust once bound from one in self to that of now two hearts bound

by threads of spiritual and physical bonds created and bonded by strong threads intended to keep one safe

to build foundations and bridges strong

so as they will never come down

Hearts shattered and torn amongst this new pain

where did this crevasse lye when all seals where all edges were strongly sealed and bonded in pure love

Where has this all gone wrong

no memories or stories left for us to feel proud and keep to tell

Downing in despairs that this was never real

knowing that it’s only my feelings boiling the truth down

Tears falling as my days faced fade apart

each piece breaking so ice cold like

Ice glaciers freezing over beneath the waves of time

Keep this ones soul safe bring in no harm

All promises made I shall still remain true trying to be strong and keep

Keep this child unharmed as well

may se be strong throughout every journey of each of life’s doors

My heart is saddened y this breaking news

it’s like a single fuse awaiting and willing to blow

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I Have Never Been…

I have never been miss congeiniality, miss popularity, not even prom queen.

I have been in pagent’s, plays,battle of the bands and commuinty theaters, but never popular in any means.

Miss popularity, the singer, and miss USA have always been just that…dreams

You may look at my friends list and say “WOW, LOOK AT HER” She’s gotta be miss popular

but amazingly I never have been

I do habe many friends, but that is just my meory of who and what good people who have toucjed my life in one way or another imprinting their trust, love, hope and pure generosity just for me to be able to reach out and touch me and my heart.

Miss popularity is okay but I have become happy today with just being me and finding my way in the truth that I made me this way. I became who I wanted to be that was suit just for me.

I created my inner piece of mind

I couldn’t do it without those people in my life who I entrust and can proudly call my friends to be able to send out those proper friend requests

So I dedicate this writing to all those people i call my friends list

I would rather have you as my friend then left behind as something forgotten and unclaimed

Words Of Silence

Words of silence never said or read. Words manifested of rage or fear kept silent within and not spoken. Not said to feel safe and keep all away. Words manafested to protect and stay safe of fear instead. Left alone to stay solitude and fully get away. What others don’t know cannot hurt today not to be hastled or bothered for what others say. This is life held in silence to keep others away. 

Broken And Forgotten Tears

Broken And Forgotten Tears

Given time it’s said it may return and all will be fine

in my heart I try to feel, see and believe

though I just don’t foresee it coming back to me

I fear this may be too real

for someone to one day know you inside and out and all the way around

yet then totally forget you as if you never were anything

others may not understand and may be okay with the new ways

Though for me this is too deep and too real to let go of for eternity

When one person means the world to me

yet has faded and drifted out of reality

I can not face or accept this

I can not make myself happy over this

I have given my entire life over this one person

I have spent every hour of everyday sharing writings and song with this person

to just sit back letting this person slip away and forget me as if I never even remained

I’d rather accept death than heartbreak an heartache

this rips my heart to pieces and tears me at it’s seams

I once shared everything with this person

they were my realities and my family

now they stare the unknown fear of strangers in my eyes

making black shadows form in my soul hidden in fear and tears fall from beneath my eyes.

I can not hide my fact of me sitting here beginning to cry

everything becoming erased and ripped from deep within every craves within me

feeling violated of all my secrets and personal things I entrusted within them as I once had

nothing left but a fearful blank stare making me sad and cry each broken tear.

broken and forgotten tears

left to flood any feelings still waiting to share once more that I may never see that day

This is the truth and the pain I can not face

Thank You My Faithful Readers

Twenty-fourteen left in the dust

readers still reading throughout all my many years of these posts.

Twenty-fifteen still a journey being born

The man I love becoming fourteen years of whispers in the wind

possibly becoming two more broken hearts

history once again repeating itself

yet throughout all these posts I’ve seen rays of lights open at times

a spark touching someone deep within their hearts

as matter of fact it was alive tonight

Some stranger or maybe just a search engine I really don’t know

all I know is I was browsing and saw someone’s writing about my own wordpress site

read it thru and it was so accurate that it mad me choke up

and cry

2015

and my first tears begin

Thank you to all my faithful readers for all your supports

for all your love and strength each year to keep myself posting each year

Thank you for being faithful and true

thank you for remaining you

Whomever or whatever wrote those words

I don’t know you but thank you for doing so

thank you for letting me see that my journeys are really being heard

and even more so thank you for summing up my paths in focus of what was still not even seen even by me

thank you for making me see my left out understandings of my own realities

making me see what was meant for me

thank you for becoming my faithful readers please continue to travel with me

thank you for making me still believe