Tightening up my rein. I stay as tears fill my eyes. Don’t they see that I am doing all that is fully within me. My heart may be fully loaded and have all enough to go and spread out anywhere. However my heart has been ripped and torn in many a way throughout my past out years. I am doing all I can set within me currently. Don’t they see that this is me.
I’m not a hard out party person putting my life in behind me. This is me. This is what I live for each and everyday.
New things lay upon my plate. A man I like I have to rely on trust in truth for I can not see because he lives not near and too far away.
I believe in my heart but not too sure with my self securities. Putting myself down and negative and hard on me is what I usually see. Yet a possitive person is really me.
Just harder on myself is where I remain weak.
I hope and pray for a true helpful lead in life that I may see the unseen which I feel shall never become a part of me. My future always seeming unreal and unseen. A feeling as if it shall never be.