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Angels Pain


You were never there to watch a world born but you’ve heard the stories told
You’ve witnessed the miracles of your very own. You’ve see things that no one else has seen and know things that no one knows. Yet inside of it all you keep trying your hardest to be pure. Knowing that you will never remain truly pure. However even though you’ve Seen it all you’ve still not seen one thing. You’ve never seen or felt the wrath of a true angels pain.
Weights lifted high in her wings she keeps it all inside, when you look her in the face you can see the stains of how many times she’s cried. You’ve maybe seen all that, but you’ve never seen it all. Angel’s pain goes greater so and travels even more. They have truly seen it all. They’re wings hold them sturdy so that the weight will not make her fall. Angels have no one but themselves to talk to and tell and all their pain stays bottled in and hidden. We have each other to discuss and confide, but instead we try to hide and run instead. Making ourselves so weighed down stress and anxiety, panic, fright and depression begin to take over and set in. We are not angels we can not bare that weight and pain. we do not have the angels wings to support the weight that they bare. You’ve never seen or felt the wrath of a true angels pain.

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I Will Stand


you can look at me and call me names

you can break my heart in sensless shame

but you cant take my mind from the truths I know

I can tell you once or tell you twice

 but you stay dumbfounded and dont care to know

you can pull my hair and slap my face

i wont always break down and cry

I’ll stand my ground for I have the right to

no matter how hard you fight and beat me down

I’ll stand my ground with every blow

you look me in the eyes

  telling me not to try to run my own life

I tell you…

 you can try and continue to disrepect all that i say

but I shall stand my ground till i die

At least I respect things that  you say

even when you hit me and make me black and blue

I’ll stand to you even when you least want or expect me to

you will take my flesh with you to the grave

weather you want to or not

because beating me will only bring you shame and a grey soul in life

however I will fight you to the end

you aren’t gonna tear me down

I will stand here and hold my ground

you can take my life or at least try

I won’t run from you and hide

I have no shame or no guilt to hide

i will stand my ground and live on the edge of life

 

Moving To First Grade


Your life begins as a tiny sized pea
Beginning to grow and change bringing to it it’s brand new form once becoming a baby

As that baby grows from small to tall and growing into old it no longer is such a small baby, then it becomes a child

The child then begins to grow and then understand more and mature still growing as it will to being able to ride a school bus, learning at her own will

Now she’s finished kindergarten another year learned and complete
The school year coming to an end
The child has come so far and ready to move another milestone ahead bringing her to first grade then

You sit back and realize that you have seen so much, yet that you miss so much more she flew right thru kindergarten and caught up with her peers

Time has flown by just as a raindrop falling from the rain cloud in the sky next she’ll soon be becoming a teen uh oh look out she’ll soon then be asking for the keys, or going on a date

Kindergarten in over now
She’s already at first grade beginning next school year

I can’t believe these girls of mine were once my tiny treasures once so small such a short time ago that I was still laying on my belly and that now we are already here at first grade beginning next school year

Growing from young to old is not and easy thing to do, but moving so quickly is one thing that you can’t surpass it’s so

Watching from the sideline as your little one so quickly grows your bound to shed a tear or two

Your babies aren’t babies anymore they are becoming beautiful young girls right before your face with next years new era MOM, I’M MOVING INTO FIRST GRADE!!!

A new excitement brought along with a new song and phrase
A new joy shining in upon her soul white face
Something that means so much to her she now says it everyday like this is really something big

Welcome to your new class girl now you’ll see the old and may find even some new friends beginning in first grade

Next year again will fly by too and quickly move you forward moving you in then to the beginning of first grade

Then you’ll get to watch all the kids behind you and say that was once me last year

You’ll be the new endeavor, the new big girl you’ll be the one to help them thru the year so that they then will be the ones soon moving to first grade

 
 
Aside

Looking into my eyes

you ask…

Mommy what will i be when i grow big like you

Will I be as sweet sensed as you

what will I be when I grow

My response…

Sweet child of mine you may be exactly what you want to be

be anything from your hearts fine desires

don’t let anyone take that away

you will be what you are meant to be when you grow as big as me

Sweet as I am and sensible too

you need not learn that for you already know

in God’s good time all will fall through just as should be

that is when you will become just what you want to be

Mommy can I be a singer…

 can I own my own pet shop…

can I choose my own car and make it just as I would want it for me

my darling you can be and do anything written from your heart

you can do or be anything that you want to be

you may always think of that till when you grow older like me

just keep the door open and your mind set free

then my dear you can become whatever you would like to be

will you still be there till the day I decide

will you hold my hand and aproove as i make up my mind

I am your mother love

I will never walk away

I will always stand by yourside each and everyday

I will aproove whatever choice you would decide

wheather I agreee or disaproove I will alsways stand by your side

I will give you my words and my own piece of mind

however in the end I will know that we could come to a compromise

 and that this new big girl is the very child of mine

A child who I once told you could be whatever you want to be

that choice is yours and not that of mine

the decision is yours of your own hearts desire

so I will only follow along and be the strong held wire helping you pull it all thriugh

No matter what I will always be your mother and look after you

I will let you do and be whoever God has created you

I will help you reach your own hearts goal

and I will always stand by you and help pull you thru

So mommy… when I grow as big as you I can be what I want to be

yes dear, when you grow as big as me you can be what you want to be

Mommy,

I’ve gotten big now…

what do I want to be

My child,

you’ve gotten bigger indeed

your slowly growing big like me

but you must decide what you would like to be

Mommy,

I want my pet shop now.

I want to own my very own pet store

I have decided that on my own on my way

now would you please go and buy one for me

child my dear you are only seven

you still must be older and bigger to buy a pet store

but it’s okay if that is what you would like to be

I will help you train and know how to run your pet store when the time is just right and okay

I will help you prepare you

I will help you find your way

so that you may follow your hearts desire

 to be just what you would like to be

looking into your eyes…

I say one day child you will decide right

your turn will come when you are as big as me

then you will know and find your very hearts desire in life

Looking Into My Eyes…Mommy What Will I Be

 
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Posted by on June 4, 2012 in Love, Poetry, Uncategorized

 

I Gaze At Grey Skies


While lying awake in the early rise of the day

 I gaze at grey skies and clouds out my windows slowly blowing past and away

after the storms of the night pounding loud on the house

tornado warnings issued for the counties around me

now flooding the threat for this morning Isee

silence of the storm calming and going away

awaiting the day to fully clear and glow in the morning sun

I gaze out my window not yet knowing what will come today within my day

will it be sunny and beautiful or muddy and filled with rain all day

I gaze at grey skies out my window  today

My day has not yet fully begin with kids still sleeping

there is nothing yet to be done

Time to myself I finally get some of

when a mom of three always seems to be a busy and tough job

this time I have I quietly stay

lying awake in the bliss of the rise of the day

gazing out the window at the grey skies outside

 shading the morning of the beginning of my new day

enjoying the stillness and quiet moment that i get before me

 
 
 
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