Forty Steps Into Love And A Family- A Journey Into Love

The first time I told you how I felt I told you to give you hope that there was someone in the world who cared and had a deep enough care to be love for you
I broke you from the silence that night as all our honesty poured out to heal each others wounds and give us hope that day in turn saving a life as well

The second time I told you cause I had drawn so close both inside and emotionally and was not sure how long I would have it there in my life

The third time was the charm that woke me up inside when I realized I was memorized within God’s plan that I could not hide no matter how hard I had tried
After promising myself I would not let this go anywhere and I would not get deeply involved I realized that in emotions you cannot always choose what you think is right…. it is your emotions that lead your soul, heart and thoughts they have there say just as well.

By the forth time we both had our own realizations with ourselves that we made tough steps and pulls along the way having our own wars within ourselves and between our selves feeling things we did not knowing how yet to respond
We argued amongst ourselves so that we could try to ignore our own wars of how we felt

 trying to break free reluctance began as we continually told ourselves I am not falling for this one I promised first hand
I will stand my ground and be strong within
That is the promise that I made and I will keep

Making the fifth time even harder than the first although the longer we said this the harder the fire burned burning on the outside as anger and fury
While on the inside bringing in it’s hottest flame to release all the truth of how we really deeply felt within

The sixth time we both finally gave in while tears filled our eyes and we both went silent on speech as we together finally just fell asleep by each others side

The seventh time came and still shocked and still speechless we inch our words out likea turtle coming from out of his shell for the very first time

By the eighth time yet we still had not yet met but all the feelings and words all felt so right no more spiritual battles within we tried to hold back we quieted our souls as we turned and gave in

 Though still by nine we were still timid and shy at this new place we were in
It was not till ten that we truly finally opened up in all the possible ways where we finally honestly admitted to ourself and each other how we felt all along
Saying the words that we had always said but knowing this time that something had changed

Eleven came in and I said it to you telling you when you least expected and it threw you for shock that you could not reply

Twelve stumbled by and you said as loud as you could unable to speak but in a whisper reiterating what I had already said
Three simple word we hear in each of  our days in many ways

By thirteen we had made our own path of all the ways these words could step on

 that by fourteen it was out wide and in the open that not only could we longer hide it from ourselves but it was visable now to everyone else
People would think we were already together when we had barely even begun

Fifteen came and  went as we both vent and seemed we saw then the strength that our relationship really had

At sixteen we began to wake with not even a sound as soon as we both were there just by our spiritual connection we had that we could feel each others presence without even a simple touch as we just got near one another ourself

Seventeen came and we were now comfortably fit within our new role as part with each other all along

That eighteen flew by without even a sight

Then came nineteen like a race car overtime when we each were around the joy and happiness overtook us leaving us in relief even on the hardest of days

Twenty came gallantly trotting in as we  settled ourselves once more and finally said out loud those three simple words in the way that we both reluctantly did yelling “I love you” now so that everyone heard what they already seen for so long

Twenty one is truly where our life really began

Bringing into twenty two all sigh and relief as we had made it this far

Making twenty three a beautiful gift battleing and defeating to overcome all obsticles which had tried holding us back

Giving twenty four the hope it had worked so hard to believe in

Then at twenty five making it even more alive

Moving to  twenty six we are no-longer looking or turning back

While at twenty seven we began working on keeping focused on holding onto each other tight so that if that day shall ever pass we would still be together in even at last

holding tight even at twenty eight we almost fell at that fate

But twenty nine gained all the strength to pull it all back
giving thirty a second chance at life

Now at thirty one we fell again in relief letting all the tears flow out

when then at thirty two we held tighter to not loose that focus once more taking in what we had almost lost once

 not wanting to have thirty three take it all away

At thirty four we opened the doors to bring in new life…

Beginning a family at thirty five
Now we are approacing thirty six and working on finally being in each others life

If all goes as in the plans at thirty seven we should have our own house making all this work worth while

 making thirty eight some real time for ourselves
Preparing thirty nine for one last change

As we step into forty and open the door to the place we will call our home
Here is where we will truly become a true family

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