Hopeless Hope

With my life round me crumbling to pieces and darkness prevailing in

 kids schedules off balance from the life that I have been given

 my heart lonely and emotions running dry of tears

I try to search for this light of hope yet it’s nowhere to be found

my heart begins to harden and die as I begin to see no hope inside

 this hopeless hope comes rushing in like rapids on a river

 I begin to loose my faith in all things in life that I see

 while i see nomore hope in front or around me

 I had once conquered my fear built in my life giving me hope in many places of void

now my hope that I once had within has died out burning out the flame

 and gone with the wind

 not even things that have kept me happy keep me happy anymore

 I feel like running away and walking right out the door

In your arms I want to be

 embraced and full of love

for if I were with you I couldn’t be so blue

  my hope would be filled once more

 all has gone lost since she passed away I can’t find any hope left inside

you opened the door for me once before and I know in time it will show me a sign but life is so hard with this hopeless hope

 I can’t even cry one tear

 my heart is longing for this hope again and crying full with pain

I lived my life as I best have

not yet giving up but hope I need to find

 you say that two sets of footprints are here one mine and one yours

 that you are here but it’s so hard anymore for mearly the thought that in tough times when I only see the one set this is when I needed you most and this my dear is when you have carried me along that tough road

 I can not feel as you are here at all

my heart has hardened to keep me sain as best it can while protecting me from disater of myself

I only ask of you to help me out here to find a way to help me locate and find the hope I search as I feel I have failed and lost the way needing some extra help today

If you really are with me this I plee

 find a new life and help me for this hopeless hope is filling within me drounding me

within washing me away in sorrow

I know that I conqured this once before  though I feel I can not this time for sure

I ask of thee to help me stay strong for a though road I have known

to find a place for me to be that I can call my own my home

 bring me into the happy place I once had always known

 finding peace and serenity within filling me once again with that hope

my road has slimmed my health is failing

 soon I fear there will not be much more life in me let alone a trust in you my spirit is growing dim my vision has already become blind

my mind within my brain is dieing as hope has gone away

in search of hope I try to find I try to continue still however passing time and digging deep i see none in sight

 only a hopeless hope I see that I wish I could destroy

 it’s ugly and evil and nothing to view as it only depresses me more

build me up lord

help me once more

 I am loosing myself like a quicksand pit sucking me into it’s hole

 I have nothing much left within for I have already given up this life I have right now life is too hard for me to like

please vanish this hopeless hope and build me up inside

giving me a strong support to hold me high

for my time is coming near that I will soon give up some more